Birdsong
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Birdsong
Out now
Birdsong
Out now
Birdsong
Out now
Birdsong
Out now
SEE IT THROUGH
Everything that begins will eventually end, it's inevitable. We can debate how long it'll take or what it'll look like, but the end of whatever it is will always come. Some things happen a little easier and others need a little nudge. Life, this journey, from beginning to end is a question of commitment.
How many days will you wade in the water? Does it change if you had to wade alone? With time I've come to see commitment as courage put into practice over and over. It takes bravery to push against what's pushing you... but to win its not enough to begin, you have to see it through. To live on your knees or die on your feet both require the same level of commitment. It's the same tools put into use, but just motivated by different beliefs.
If I were to dig a little deeper I'd say commitment is just another way of asking "what do you believe?" If the mountain doesn't move that doesn't take our ability to go around, over, or through it. Sometimes commitment is staying still. It's protecting that small voice as it grows louder and louder, that voice that says "I can do it."
The theory can be brilliant but without practice it'll always fail. How do you continue to push with no hope? Those moments you find yourself at the end of your rope holding on hoping that you didn't take the wrong road. When everything around you is saying to let go, that's where commitment lives.
YOU AND YOURSELF
Every passing second is practice for how you're going to spend the next. With each breath the body memorizes the feeling, and eventually that becomes locked into the fibers of your being.
I remember the moment when I realized what I was doing when I wasn't "doing"... it was Thursday afternoon, I had just finished recording, and I had a couple of hours before needing to head out to the movie theater. I spent an hour thinking about all the things I could do with that time, but in reality I did nothing, I sat and let it pass me by. Eventually I realized the time, got up got ready and rushed to the theater. When I returned home did I sleep? No.
For some reason I felt the need to revisit that moment from earlier in the afternoon. It was the disconnect between me and my body that consumed me. I recognized that I wanted something different than my body in that moment. While I was slightly flirting with the idea of what I could do, my body was committed to what it had practiced.
That moment was the beginning of my renovation, to renew my understanding of commitment and see it through a different lense. Diligence and discipline weren't tools that I lacked I just applied them in the wrong direction. I wasn't stuck I was committed to being still. By recognizing I was the problem I also found the solution.